Things haven’t been going that well for me lately with toy-selling…
I pulled down all of my old listings when I learned I was getting a $10,000 grant from eBay with the thought of retooling things and making a fresh start, but that made my sales numbers tank by quite a bit.
I also used a good chunk of my grant money to buy a very large, high-end G1 My Little Pony collection which I believe is going to more than triple (and possibly even quadruple) my investment.
However, it takes time to clean, photograph, describe, and list hundreds of ponies and accessories and playsets.
This is in addition to the large collections of troll dolls and G3 My Little Ponies I bought over the summer to resell… plus all of the random junk I acquire through thrifting, flea markets, etc.
I have been working my butt off every week, pushing myself to list 100 fresh items per week…
But sales have been flat to nonexistent and I have been getting progressively more worried.
This past week I started having headaches and chest pains and stomach issues over how bad business has been for me.
I could barely get out of bed yesterday I was so worried about everything.
For those of you who still don’t think God is real, I invite you to carefully examine this next bit of evidence I am about to present…
Because I was laying face-down on my bed crying and seeking God when a supernatural peace settled on me– I’m talking full-on sobbing and gulping breaths one minute and the next minute I’m as zen as a Himalayan monk…
I sat up, dried my tears, and wrote down everything in the picture below in a kind of trance as God’s words just flowed through me (and yes, I know my handwriting is terrible, kthxbye 😝)…
I realized that I needed to let go and trust God because yet again I was failing in that and letting my worries about the future cloud everything in the present…
I made a choice to release all of that to God, and my physical symptoms which had been plaguing me for several days immediately abated…
And today I have had a better sale day than any other day this month.
I have already sold more this week which has barely started than I sold the entirety of last week.
It’s still not easy for me to walk in faith versus walking in fear.
But God has always been faithful to me.
I don’t know why he loves me so much and walks so closely with me when I am such a mess and fall short in so many ways.
But I believe in him now more than ever, and I trust that he’s not going to let me fall in my business and he will continue to bless me no matter what… and maybe that’s why? 🥰